ABOUT ME:

What is Spirituality?

Spirituality is the BEing of connecting to the Divine Center or Essencee Light through your own personal experience.

Living Spiritually is concerned with seeking and experiencing, applying and embodying YOUR true spiritual nature.

 

Sistah Nichole's Testimony:

AmenRa!

 

For years, I have served as a useful source to those seeking inspiration, help, or advice. I finally decided to own that role and be intentional about it. I started writing about my passions, my thoughts, and curious wonderings about our world. I founded SPIRITUALLY SPEAKING with a mission to give others a space to be themselves.

 

I first encountered my RUPTURE on 12.24.2011. I had been asking and seeking as to why I am here and why do I exist. I asked of anyone who would hear me from the inside out. I received books and advice and offered trips to faraway places--to heal. None of it was quite what I was seeking.

What I wanted was to be turned inside out. I wanted my heart to stop aching and my soul to stop crying so much. I wanted to be recognized by others for my goodness and my faithfulness! I wanted to be loved for my loyalty and ability to endure the throws of abuses pressed upon my mind, body, and spirit. I just wanted to be FREE TO LOVE and RECEIVE LOVE as I gave!  While that may be hard for others to admit--the truth is for everyone.

I became open to whole realizations about myself and life. I had so much mixed feelings and emotions over an intense three-month period. I would write for hours at a time, sometimes whole days. There were so many messages coming from everywhere. I did not always like what I wrote, but I wrote, nonetheless. I laughed, cried, and argued with myself. I had lost my mind! Each writing opened my mind and my heart up to realization after realization, awakening after awakening.

 

My hand became my rod, and my pen, staff, and writing became my discipline and grace. I asked, and it was answered. All I had to do was write to the universe. I separated myself, to embrace my own energies and heal from life's traumas.

As I deeply embraced my journey to reawakening, I began to develop ORDER in my life. I began to listen to my inner voice for directive and confirmation. I felt love and peace welling up from inside my body and my mind, and my soul. I had become accustomed to seeking my inner self for comfort, for answers. God checked in often; I was careful and calculated how I did things. I was not always right, but I accepted when I was wrong. I did not blame others. I learned to overcome quickly.

I began to heal away from core wounds and emotions that I had long forgotten. I hadn't realized I was living out such a negative trail just because I had watered those wounds through years of self-victimization and made other people's places and things my excuses for being "this way." I decided I wanted to share with the world and started to blog. After some years, I realized as situations came up and I read through my writings, the answers were there!

Fast forward ten years to today, I am free from pain, free from blame, and free from playing on the edge of my own life! God calls to me, and for that, I am ever grateful.

The first sound a newborn baby makes when he/she enters the world is a gasp and a cry out! If you can find your voice again!...because that is where it all started, right? If you cannot seem to find your way OUT...out of your troubles…out of a bad relationship...out of substance and alcohol use...out of spiritual debt...cry out to God, and you will be saved! BUT of course, you will have some work to do!

Healing oneself is a process, and this is a no-judgment zone, so do not think I expect you to recover immediately. I messed up on some things while I was healing from something else. I decided to consolidate my spiritual debt -- and I learned to stop engaging in low yield investments (people, places, and things).

I hope that you learn something here and become inspired so that you may take up your staff and make your way out of the valley of shadows and become whole again! We are never as bad as people judge us to be. Only God will judge us fairly.

Jeremiah 3:33 says, (comprehensive) "Call to Me and I will answer you and tell you [and even show you] great and mighty things, [things which have been confined and hidden], which you do not know and understand and cannot distinguish.'

 

 AmenRa AmenRa and AmenRa!

Sistah Nichole